Been a while

So been a bit since we last posted. Had a good Christmas. Got some stuff. Spent time with family and pearl. So glad  pearl is gone. I hate her. We all hate her. She never has anything nice to say about anyone. Even her own son. Anyway. Going to try and post more now that pearl is gone. If you want us to post about something let us know. Hope all is well with those of you that read this. No one post anything so we dont know. We are in a better place then we where last time we posted. So that is Good. Changed one of or meds and one 3 times instead of 2 aday . some of the 13 year old have been making bracelets. We made one for our t for next time we see her. We have three. I love the ring mom gave panda . its so pretty. The littles love their new stuffed doggie daddy gave them. The boys can't wait to play with their new truck from dad. And the girls are trying to figure out what dad gave them.  Been playing a bit with Jacob and Emilie's  skylander game. Its kinda cool. Made us a game for us to play one it. All for now maybe more tomorrow we will see going to try and post more in the new year. If I don't post before happy new year

Not sure how i am

Its Sarah again. Amanda is not in a good place. We are not doing so well the past week. We have few new alters and one wants to kill Amanda so not good. Don't know his or her name. Just that things are very bad right now. So pray for us and that we find this alter that is trying to hurt us soon.

Depressed

This is Sarah we are not good. We want to cut to get ride of the pain we feel inside. The flashbacks and the night mares are to much and we have no clue how to stop them so we cut which makes us want to cut more. We want to go away and never come back or sleep and not wake up

Not sure what is going on

My name is Sarah beth. i have already wrote on this blog. But figured i would again. Things are not good right now. Infact they are really really bad. probably a lot worse then we people know. but it is what we do, we hide how he fee cause we feel like no one gives a shit about us. we did not have a lot of friends growing up, we got picked on and made fun off. so why would we think anyone cares about us now.  my mind is all jumbled up sp this may not make since but i need to write whats on my mind. this will probably get me in trouble. but this is how i feel. i want to cut and cut ad cut. i feel so much pain in side i have no way to express it . i probably shoud be in the hospital but i dont want to go, i hate them and dont want to go back. but i am so bad i have no clue what to do 
 

In bad place

My name is Courtney I am 33 and an alter of Amanda.  One reason we have to posted is cause some of us are in a bad place and want to cut or are feeling suicidal and we do not want to burden people. Some time we feel like no one cares about us besides our dad. We just don't know what to do. We don't want to go to the hospital again. The one in MA made us worse not better. So we swore we would never go back no matter what

Hi

My name is Sarah beth  I am 17 and an alter of Amanda. We have not posted because we are not sure anyone reads these. So why bother.